Single Isn't So Bad

Despite my single life coming to a slow end...I made a list of reasons why being single is great. I actually wrote this list a couple years ago, but whenever I need a pick me-up I look back on it.

So here's my list of the best things about being single. 

Keep in mind there are also plenty of reasons being single sucks and I'm a total floppy fish when it comes to whether I like it more or completely hate it. But I think it's more about the moments. Some moments it really is great and then you see a really happy couple and you kinda want to vomit, but secretly wish you had what they have. Anyways let's get to it. 

1. You don't have to answer to anyone. You can literally pack a bag and leave to go anywhere you want, and tell no one. You can go see whoever you want and literally nothing matters.

2. You can decorate the house/living space however you choose. You don't have to worry about what they like/don't like. You don't have to incorporate their style. Their style sucks anyways.

3. You don't have to clean up after them! The mess is all your own. 

4. If you choose to come home after a long day and eat a tub of ice cream and watch 18 hours of Netflix, no one is there to judge you. No one has to know. If someone asks what you're doing, call it "relaxing" and send them a selfie from a few days ago. 

5. Share nothing. My money is mine. My bed is mine. My pillows are mine. My food is mine. None of that what's his is hers and what's hers is his bullshit. What's mine is mine! 

6. Decide for a straight week you aren't cooking dinner. No one complains except your stomach. 

7. Fighting. None. Literally not one fight while being single. No one to fight with, that makes things real simple. 

8. Spend mindless hours on your phone or on a hobby. Don't worry about neglecting anyone. Maybe your friends, if you have any.

9. Literally every choice you make is your own. You don't have to compromise with anyone, or ask for permission. You don't have to see if they want Chinese for dinner too. Watch all the shit movies you want. Sleep with the light on. No one can tell you no, except yourself and maybe your parents if they still boss you around.

10. Presents. No. None. Buy yourself something instead. No having to think about what they want. No having to spend your money on anyone else. Treat yourself! Yes I like those shoes. Early birthday present to me from me. Doesn't matter how early, or how often.
11. And lastly, you discover yourself. That's deep. but, really you learn to love yourself. It's a time of self-discovery. And that's so important in life. I doubt I'll ever say I wasted so much time on myself.

-Embrace Freedom

Three Blind Mice

How is it possible to have feelings for three people at once. 

The way he texts me good morning. And goodnight. The way he mumbles when he says something silly because he's nervous. The way he uses big words out of the blue. The way he encourages me. The way he smiles and his eyes light up. Our first date, every moment of it. How we actually had a real date. The way he has been counting down the days he has left at work until he can see me. 

But then there's the way he walks into my life and sweeps me off my feet. The way he talks about the  things he's passionate about. The way he compliments me when I don't expect it. The way he looks at me with those green eyes of his. The way he tickles me when we're lying next to each other. The inner strength I can see in him, even though he's never told me anything about it. The way he pulls me close to him.

And there's the way he makes me laugh. How we have some of the most fun times I've ever had together. The way we cuddle all night. The way he kisses my hand. How I feel when I'm with him and his friends, like I belong. The way he carries positive energy everywhere he goes. The way we just connect. How he is slowly opening up to me. 

When I met each of you I never knew something more would come out of it. I never wanted to feel this way. I never wanted to feel like I had to make a choice. I never wanted to make you feel like I was only seeing you, but I never meant for it to become such a secret either. I've wanted to tell you. Or ask you what you wanted between us, but it hasn't ever come up. You've never asked me either though, each of you kind of just assumed. 

But then again maybe none of you are quite right. Maybe I choose the wrong one, and the other two meet someone new. Maybe you find out that I'm seeing him too, and walk away before I get the chance. 

But maybe I need each of you in my life. Maybe I feel too deeply about each one of you. Maybe one just isn't enough. 

Everyday you're on my mind, just send me a sign. 

-Who Knew This Could Hurt